We come into this world shining perfect beams of light. We smile when we are happy, we sleep when we are tired. We cry when we are confused or lost or feeling are something we’ve never felt before. We get angry when we feel anger. We EAT when we are HUNGRY. And we stop when we are full. We just do this all so automatically. Its brilliant, really. We don’t even have to put in extra effort to get rid of all the excess left over stuff. We just poop it out! And if we can’t poop. We cry. We get belly rubs. Then we poop. WE KNOW WHAT TO DO.
So why do we start to interfere? We go on crazy diets, we use laxatives, enemas and diuretics. We restrict foods and make weird rules around foods and we create these weird routines with food. We vomit, we overexercise, we skip meals, insisting we had “a large lunch.” We count every calorie, including that pack of gum you ate in a day because it has fewer calories that cereal. We begin to tell our bodies that what it is naturally doing is wrong and we start to play God. We take sleeping pills to sleep. We drink to feel good. We toke to chill. We fuck to feel pretty. We drink coffee to “wake up”…but didn’t you just do that an hr ago? Like, in real life? We assimilate to societal structures so we do not get left behind. It makes sense. Plus, the world begins to get a lot rougher and faster as the years progress. It’s all innocent enough. We just don’t want to get left behind. And this must be the right thing if everyone else is doing it.
In a world where you must fit in but also stand out. No wonder we begin to ignore the silent, patient wisdom of our bodies. We get so pulled out of ourselves by stimulation, expectation, and the general unconsciousness of our planet. We begin to, energetically, learn how hurt our people and our planet is, by becoming the same. Our patriarchy molds us energetically. We really don’t have a choice. Even the strong or the gifted have something they’ve picked up from life that they struggle to deal with. While were young, anyways.
And then we grow and we hurt and we somehow cope. But then we get stuck and we begin to question. Is this really it? Why are things the way they are? Do I have any choice? Why do I feel these things? Am I just completely defective/ crazy/ stupid. It’s especially the extra sensitive beings that feel this extra and often have more intense healing crisis’ than others.
We all inherent a chunk of the unconscious to energetically inherit and live out. What I mean by this is that not so beautiful gift we are given through our family, our genetics, our lineage, our upbringing, our environment, that makes us feel cursed and defective and tortured. I inherited eating disorders. I was gifted it energetically, genetically, socially, and so on. Others get addiction or codependency or insert any health issue. We all deal with something. And often times it takes us to hell. Our own ~personalized~ hell. But no one gets out of this. We all have something. It’s so easy to forget this, especially if our lives are particularly isolated for the moment. But know this, you are not alone. You are going through everything for a reason. You are learning how to first be there for yourself through your own hell so you can liberate first yourself and then help others to liberate themselves! Such a cool thing! We are not disempowered. We are always learning. We are always choosing.
You can do this! You can beat whatever it is! By loving whatever it is! journal, talk to a friend, have a bath, breeeath. Sooth yourself and be there for yourself. Create healthy boundaries and do what makes your heart feel sweet. We suffer in life, sure. But it is not our destiny. Our destiny is to be the ones to pull ourselves out of the suffering. You are strong enough. You are beautiful enough. You are smart enough. You. Are. Enough.
I love u. Please, love u.
xoxoWillow
Willow Soul Wholistics 